what does it feel like?

to feel nothing at all. 6 pounds heavier, falling faster to the bottom of my soul. too exhausted to work for the bottom so let me just fall.

twentynothings

Another tooth fell out from my mouth, just fell right to the floor leaving a gooey hole sized playground to keep my tongue active. Last week i lost a tooth and the week before that I said goodbye to another canine friend. My teeth fall deep and far inside my conscious while im cycling through REM, a trauma lacking physical evidence but a trauma none the less. I am screaming at myself, wake up and realize what youre missing! I always wake up and am reassured by smooth enamel, my heart stops and I breath, but than I remember my sub conscious is still missing a tooth, missing a something.

They say all you must do is say, say what you want, say what you need, say what you feel and say what you see. The more I say the more I feel like im spraying locusts and slow death out of a mouth that only intends to speak what I know. What I know never seems as harsh until I say, say, say it aloud and watch the earth sprawl.