q not p...seriously

Im sorry to say but I never really tell you where my mind is when you ask. My words are too venomous to utter or getting into it means just not getting it and that's almost too much for me to handle. Your eyes are so small and your blinks too quick to see all that is living right before you. Blaming you for this would be as complex as blaming the ocean for it's dark matter. Killing softly, quietly and mercilessly without a cork or a net. Without blame comes a blurry resolve and all that is left is our hopeless platform of grey.

Stretch out your limbs and watch all their little nails vibrate with fullness as the sun jumps from keratin bed to keratin bed bouncing new, human life into the world around. Do you feel goose bumps when you know? All else matters because this is all that matters.

.....you say it all means nothing

this is so sad to me

Light that just isn’t enough leaves us cold, colder than we were ever, ever told/

loneliness is meant to be spent alone/

so just leave me alone/

Remember when I whispered I love you and you said I know.

I wanted to know too/

Loves goes cold and hearts grow dark and here I am holding yours/

I wanted to make you happy but I’m so so empty/

Will I ever be filled?/

Please fill me, please please please/

Your eyes are full with love, love that shouldnt be meant for me/

Please empty them, please. please please/

Your love for me is more than mine will ever ever be.

loneliness is meant to be spent alone/

so please just leave me alone

My tact was accidently flushed down the toilet with my tampon and I tripped over my grace on the way out of the ladies room.

flea bites

there are so many freaks in my life.. freaks full of love that can't ever shut up, they just gotta love. freaks and their fireworks, your sparks are making me clasp my hands over my eyes and turn my body in an attempt to not get burned. freaks that forget up is up and not hidden in the drain in between old hair and your forgotten wedding ring.

i think im a societal nihilist and a spiritual believer. i want to be really honest about how beautiful forgiveness and reconciliation is but im afraid that you'll laugh at me. last night was wonderful and i love the ocean and the stars like i love you. profound beauty in your words and your waves. ill keep thinking.